This was an eye-opener for me.
See that person with the rolled up jeans & black t-shirt? That's me. This picture was taken last Saturday at the craft show I was attending with my Mom (in the pink top) and my sister. It was in the local newspaper.
~*~*~*~ oh, the horror ~*~*~*~
It really broke thru my wall of denial. When I put on that outfit, (I'd been at my daughter's dance convention and returned later) I thought I looked good. I like how the jeans fit & well, the t-shirt has the studio name across the front and "Competition Team Mom" on the back. Apparently the jeans look much better from the front. From the side....OMG. I don't even want to imagine from behind.
I've been so complacent. I'm back to feeling like I did before I started WW back in 2008. I just feel fat & gross. My knees are OK most of the time. I don't have heel spurs. But my belly is currently resting on my legs as I sit & type. And when I've been sitting for a while at work and then stand up. my hip hurts. But it hurts in a weird place. At the top of my hip bone, not the actual joint. It takes a minute to work out, then I'm OK.
But I feel Blahhhh. I just had lunch. Tuna & light mayo on 2 SlimWich's and a cup of Chobani Greek yogurt. Good choices and I'm not over-full, but I still feel disgusting.
And to top it off, I'm having female issues again. Let's just say I could keep Always in business myself. It's a good thing I have a doctor's appointment in 2 weeks, because I have lots of questions & concerns!
And I stood in front of the mirror in my bra & undies & took a long, objective look last night. It was not a pretty sight. And I took measurements last night. Can't remember when I took them last. My eTools charts are all wonky. but I was able to get beginning numbers. Since August 2008, (this skims over the 18 lbs I put back on during winter 2011 when I took a break from WW) I've lost a total of 1.5 inches off my waist, 5 inches off my hips (DAMN!!), 1.5 off my arm and 2.5 off my thigh. I don't know what happened with my bust #s, since it says I went up an inch, but I know darn well the girls have gotten smaller. And I've lost a total of 47.4 lbs.
The lowest weight I've been has been 205.4 (Aug 2010) and it made me insane that I couldn't hit Onederland. And now I'm stuck back around 220. Granted I haven't been to a meeting since right before Halloween. I find that it's rather discouraging when you're sitting there with 45+ lbs down and another 50+ to go and they make a big deal about some skinny bitch who lost a whopping 13 lbs and reached her goal. But there are also people in the same boat as me. But dammit, they need earlier meetings! I hate getting home from work and be in the middle of doing housewifery stuff and them have to stop and leave again. When I get home, I want to stay home!
This calls for some drastic measures. Sigh. We're going out to dinner tonight, since Randy is leaving for 10 days in Arkansas tomorrow. But tomorrow I plan to drag out all my literature and books that I got when I re-started WW with the PointsPlus system and re-read it all and also check over the website to hopefully get me back in the saddle. And I really need to figure out how to get my butt moving (note to self - rearrange the living room!) and also figure out how to get to a meeting regularly.
OK, the Pity Party has ended. Please continue on with your irregularly scheduled blog reading!! And here is a gratuitous, happy picture of Miss Maddie sleeping in the pike position on my unmade bed.
Beginning in January, I'm doing the 13 in 13 challenge with Rebecca at Weight Wars. I haven't done this with her before, but it sounds pretty fun. I'll have to come up with 13 goals and she'll send out mini-challenges and such. Bring it, babycakes!
